Wow! So I'm terrible at this blog thing. I may get better but I'm not promising anything. I shall be getting one of the flash drive camcorders soon. So hopefully I'll be posting some video blogs. That seems like it would be much more up my alley than typing my thoughts.

I've had a terrible time to today with sleeping. I tried everything to coax myself back to sleep but I just laid there. I dream of the day when I'll sleep at night. If the Lord wills that will be soon. I'd very much like to finish school.

In other news I have so many projects on my mind that I'd like to execute including one that involves a radio theatre production. A few years ago I did one of "The tale of Peter Rabbit". I really enjoyed designing the sound and It still to this day is one of my favorite projects. Unfortunately the project files for this production were lost on my account. I wasn't very good at backing up files. It came to me suddenly that I should attempt to write a children's story. Most likely I would write the story in book form first and then script it out as an audio production. Then I was thinking if my passion permitted, it would be nice to add some motion graphics to this project. I will update my progress from time to time.

Speaking of stories, I just finished a fantastic children's novel by George MacDonald. G-Mac remains one of my favorites when it comes theology and fantasy. The book intitled "The Day Boy and the Night Girl" in short, is about (you guessed it) a boy who thrives on the day and a girl is clings to the night. You'll have to read it to know more. It was one of those books I had rewind to beginning several times before I really grasped at least the first few chapters. MacDonald like to take a whole chapter to describe a character (which I have nothing against), but it was story you had to let sink.

Welp until next time!

Ha! I just realized I rarely do anything with this blog. Let's see if we can change that.

Well I guess it's best to mention the status of my holiday season. This Christmas was a good one but nothing exciting. It was a modest occasion spent with those nearest and dearest in my life. My brother and his ever budding family came down on Wednesday to spend Christmas with me and my folks. Seeing my niece(Kailey) and nephew(Edwin) grow before my eyes is a pure and fascinating joy. Edwin was rather ornery this year but I guess that can be expected from a almost 3 year old. I gave him a dinosaur for Christmas that roars when you press it's back. At first he loved it and then alas he was scared of it. I bought Kailey a hooded sweater from Anthropolgie.

Unfortunately the holidays landed square in the middle of my work week and I was sick through most of Christmas and my birthday. Fortunately working at the airport on holidays is a fairly easy shift.

So that was my christmas and with all that said, I must say that God speaks especially in the dreariest moments of our life. I realized this Christmas that even when at my loneliest, God is with us, Emmanuel.

symptomatic agony

i recently was listening to a medical radio show and the host who seemed to be a physician himself was stating that many doctors today tend to give a symptomatic diagnosis. he went further to say that we have become patients that settle with temporary treatment, that we just want to take care of the pain for now. when i applied this thought to the spiritual sense it seemed to fit perfectly as i'm sure our creator intended.

we have settled for too long with with temporal things that were not designed to give us complete satisfaction. the world brings a vast variety of ways to take away the pain we deal with in this life. these trifles should only be given the attention they deserve because unlike the glorious forever that waits for us, these things will fade. then and only then can we live fully and abundantly through jesus.

I've let go of someone I can't let go of. Sure, this time will produce character and shape me more as a young man but still it's hard to forget.

God sees us not only how we are but how we can be. just thought i'd throw that out there.

sorry this post is short but it is.

This is my first time.

I've realized lately that worry is the cataracts of life. My mom had cataracts but she seldom worries. I worry but i don't have cataracts.

I just watched a called "the go getter" with Zooey Deschanel and that lead role from "thumbsucker".Overall there some amazing ideas and shots, the dialogue was fun and real, and M. Ward did the music.



for all who don't know i have a job at the airport. I'm trying to find another job. I actually applied to IKEA the other day and received a call today. Very excited!!! i hope things will get better.The last year and half I've felt like the kid who gets held back a grade. I know that in time it might serve me well but right now it's lame.

whoa!!! just heard the animal collective songs. pretty funky fresh if you ask me.